We all have lessons to learn. You know, the ones that seem like they should be easy, but you somehow need to keep learning them over and over and over again. One of mine (and yes there are plenty), is that I do too much. That has been evident even on this blog.
To my credit, I have gotten better. There is much less on my plate than there used to be. The hardest times for me, though, are weeks like this. I'm sick. I hate being sick. And I got sick because I've been doing too much in the last few weeks. But I hate being sick because it gives me time. Time to think about all the things I want to do in life, to dream, and to reflect.
And unfortunately, a side effect of reflection long overdue is to feel crappy about myself because I easily get lost in what’s not happening.
When I was talking about this cycle I go through with a friend, it became obvious to me.
- I need more time to dream and to reflect. So how do I get that time? Schedule it in? Have more time alone? Journal? Talk about this more intentionally with close friends?
- I want to be an expert at everything. We can only be good at so many things at once and instead of trying to do it all, I need to focus. (refer back to revelation #1).
- It’s not about getting annoyed with myself or telling myself to slow down, well it is partly, but it’s also about getting these other pieces of me fed.
- Getting mad at my body doesn't help anyone.
My friend said to me today, “it’s not about what you’re not doing or what you’re doing wrong… but about what needs to change.” The lesson keeps coming back to me, but it does sing a different tune each time. And I’m grateful for this friend who highlighted the missing piece for me today.
What is your lesson you keep learning?